Issue 10.1 Fall 2014

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My Attractive Parasite

 

Allison Sokolowski

 


Destruction…
is so attractive
I long to take a drag….
on death.
To let the liquor
drown my cognizance.
To let the madness whither my insides
Eat away at my brain
And decay my body until I become a black hole
And cease to exist.

 

That’s not suicide, that’s…

 

Emily knows me.
I have felt a funeral in my brain.
The Requiem in D minor began
and slowly deteriorated until
The Plank in Reason, broke,
And I dropped down, and down -
And hit a World, at every plunge,
And Finished knowing - then –

 

Why does Madness birth creativity?
Plath, Sexton, Woolf, Storni, Kane
went down with the ship.

 

How do I simultaneously desire and repel my madness?
My Parasite has unveiled a whole new world to me,
But she’s still a Parasite.

 

I bid her goodbye as I slowly pluck her out of her clutches
One tooth at a time
And she’s almost gone.

 

I fear and long for the day she comes back
An old friendfiend.

 

Maybe she’ll come unnoticed,
Fierce and angry I left her
And rip me to pieces with a vengeance.

 

Maybe she’ll slowly creep back
Into the crevices of my sulcus
And cuddle there for quite some time.

 

 

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